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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

~ 7:02 PM ~

haha 2nd time in a row that i was late actually its not i really wan to be late...but todae was raining so heavily that i hv no idea where d taxis hv gone..oh well..luckily d incharge treat us like adults n not nag at us like we r some small kids..i mean its not totally our fault that we'll late haha..in fact i woke up like close to 6am...tiring sia..

anyway, yesterdae i woke up feeling so terrible, i fell ill haha..sore throat, bad cold, n terrible headache..but that didnt stop me from coming to work for attachment..i also dun wan to repeat again..i wan to do it like for once for all..wahaha :P ne way, i had lots of fun at d elderlycare centre, interact wif d elderlys, play recreational games like ball games etc..overall i did learnt something from there too..oh yea me n my frens also dance when theres exercise in d morning lol...2dae met my darlin at bedok interchange haha..so happi to see him..

he sayang me n pamper me lol..darlin dun sayang me so much..l8er wait i become spoilt ah..wahahaha..den i order u around..no lah i where got so cruel j/k :D neway gonna rest now..take care, love u darlin, muackz!

Thursday, July 21, 2005

~ 7:50 PM ~

tml is my last dae of attachment at tampines polyclinic..i will miss d daes thou its like only for one week..well..d nurses were all very friendly n me and my frens, communicate with some of d nurses..haha i kinda like all of them lol..they r my fairy god mothers wahaha :p i learnt lots of things from there..although some of them may hv startled n frighten me, now dun really hv d appetide to eat after seeing blood flow so much..dun feel too good either..i guess i must get used to it..one of them also compliment me hee that i was a good student... :D

celebrate mei's birthdae last sundae, had lots of fun..anyway its been a long time since i last saw her..so well she's still d same n we talked about sec sch stuff n how much we missed each other..me and chel foot d bill as we ate in a cafe at cineleisure...d people working there find us amusing as they had never seen people packing food home..she pay for d neoprints..finally!! we got a pic all taken together haha :) miss u guys always!!

i also miss my darlin hee, yesterdae my uncle say both of us look so alike n that we look like husband n wife haha..quite interesting rite? wahaha...i love my darlin so so so much..more den anyone can love him, darlin, i cherish u forever! :D hehe i bet u r melting when u read this!!! i really cant wait to spend my whole life with u..*sees the future* wahaha..cant wait to hear ur voice everydae, cant wait to hear u say u love me lol, cant wait for everything ahh!!!! :p

anyway, next week, i'm not sure when i can go online cos i'll be hving attachment too haha..at d nursing home n rehabiliation centre..i hope i'll learn something new there hee...okie actually i dun really noe wheres d direct location located lol..oh yeah before i forgot, helped up in my sch concert for one of d chinese local singer..i love his songs too..over all we did alrite, n my vice president was very happi! hmm...on that dae, my legs n feet were so painful that i trembled, so took cab home cos i wasnt feeling too good either..oh well..guess i feel even worse now den before..i think i'm gonna fall sick after attachment..my heart is kinda hving d aching pain..haiz..

well gonna go now..eating my grandma's famous marcoroni..i just love that food haha!! yummy!!
p.s i love u darlin :D

Thursday, July 14, 2005

~ 5:30 PM ~

darlin happi 5th month anniversary..hehe.. :D just wanna say that i always wan to be with u n ur my everything dearly to me..i love u!!!

hehe..hmm..went back for cca meeting todae..quite alrite lah..but den it suddenly rain so heavily den stop den rain again..something wrong wif d weather indeed..was at sch, ate sandwich cos dunno whether got lunch at home..hmm..den during that time, i learnt something which is gonna be a surprise for my darlin..hee.. hmm...went hm ate mee swao..grandfather's b'dae!! hehe..love u grandpa.. den my grandma make pizza for me which was damn delicious..

i also called my fren, Alex, haha..talk for awhile den finally get to use d comp haha..wan to play sims or maple story..but mostly is wan to go on msn to see whether my darlin online so can tok to him..oh well..i so miss my darlin, todae in sch, my fren was teasing me that i getting engaged ah..cos she saw me wear ring mah..but den i told her tis is a promise ring, its not marriage lah..hehe...but overall all this was just a joke hehe..so happi to see her..thou its like only a few days of break..

anyway, tml to sundae the cost of d fantastic 4 movie is like $1.60 cos of straits times celebration..only at cineleisure..thats like so cheap..compared to $9.50 haha..my darlin suggest to watch tml..hehe..i mean y not, its nice wat haha..oh well gonna go now..wanna play before go home..ciao..*muackz darlin*

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

~ 12:14 PM ~

heylo hee...tml is my 5th month anniversary wif my darlin...hmm..so missing him!!! and so loving him hahaha.. :D anyway i got back my results yesterdae..didnt do that well..fail 2 modules le..oh well tis is not d end of d world, i'm gonna try harder next time..n learn from my mistakes..i was surprise that my mum encourage me on..i've such a good mother!! love u mum! :)

yesterdae my darlin very nice, cheer me up thou i may not show that i'm sad or when i say i'm alrite..thanks darlin!! :) plus i ate dinner at his hse haha..yummy! yum yum..haha..on d way to fetching my darlin hm, i met junwei, my work colleque..haha its been a long time since i kip in touch wif them..hmm..miss u siying n delphine!!! wahaha...remember d times when we workin, we were joking behind at the backroom.. :D

haha also ate my fave chocolate---kinder blueno yipee!!! my darlin so nice woke up early in d morning just to go buy..thankies!! okie i better go now..i'm really starved..didnt eat breakfast todae..hmm..tuloos

p.s miss u baby darlin!! muackz..

Monday, July 11, 2005

~ 6:12 PM ~

hee...i think i so long never blog le..hmm..recently just got back one of my test result...pass but not really that good..i think i have to work even harder next time...tml is d officially dae that my test results might all come out..i wonder whether i can take d news haha..thou to others it might be only a common test..but to me n my parents...its different..oh well..maybe i'm born to be stupid..haiz...

okie hmm..last saturdae, went to watch fantastic four wif my darlin, d show is really good..after that had lunch at tis sushi restaurant which i still cant remember d name haha..hmm..den my darlin n i bought a pair of promise rings hee...its damn nice n very memorable lo cos the rings r encraved of our namesl..i'm sure both of us r gonna treasure it life how we cherish each other :)

oh well suddenly i'm so keen to wan to learn d proper way of figure skating..borrow two books on basic steps and world class ice skaters..hehe...i wish i can go ice skating..nw that d one at kallang is close down..hv to travel so far...hmm..how m i gonna spend my one week break? hmm..read books, browse thru my textbooks, go out if possible haha.. :P

p.s darlin, our 5th month anniversary coming le..just in 3 days time....i cant wait!!! love u so so much!! miss ya, muackz.. :)

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

~ 3:45 PM ~

well i just got back from sch not tt long..my feet behind got blisters cos of d new shoes that i wore todae for test..so painful..should have wore socks todae lah..haiz..err..test was alrite lah but i dun really have confidence..thats too bad lor..oh well..i'm not in d mood to say anything, just wan to bury my sorrows to myself..i feel its too painful to even think or say abt it...oh no better not suffer from minor depression wahaha :p

i guess its really bad..i know my tears r wantin to roll down but still stuck inside d eyes..no wonder my eyes so watery...i should cry inside d toilet bah..den also not so obvious that my eyes wld be red...haiz...i need chocolates especially my fave kinder bleno!!!! i dunno how to face my mum when my results r out..or either face anyone..i mean who knows maybe i really am stupid *sobs*....

practical, it was alrite but i was real nervous..and i made lots of mistakes...d invigilators say me..say cant wear earrings that r long..i mean c'mon my earrings r not long, its like up to my ear lobe only and its a small stub..omg..so pissed off..maybe everything is my fault...y cant i just go to d course of my choice..i feel as if i'm not doin so well in my current course..so disappointed in myself n to others..i dun understand y i can apply it at hm..but when during test, i'm like one nervous wreck!!!! *sobs*...

tml my fren's b'dae, happi b'dae in advance!!!! :D okie okie i know thats a sad smile cos i'm feeling so unhappi..k better go now..wan to go eat lunch haiz...actually no appetide..wait a minute still got left over ice cream since 2 months le haha...btw darlin, thks for tt fabulous voicemail, it cheers me up todae, love u always! muackz :)

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

~ 3:40 PM ~

i feel a sense of loss in me, everything seems to be tumblin down..hmm..yesterdae had my first common test..my instinct already tells me that i'm gonna flunk it cos when i first saw d paper, i was so lost!!!! help!!! wat in d world is d paper tokin about???!! actually i got study but d paper was real difficult..oh well no mood to talk le..not in d mood for anything..except that i really wan to do well..but counting the time of how long i've not been studying...its like almost 4 mths lol..i think my brain has stop functionin wahaha j/k..maybe i shouldnt give up so easily..i think its cos i'm not adapted to the poly life still..thou everyone seems alrite now..haiz...i'm such a letdown... :'/

hmm...recevie news that joelle move hse..in fact she move nearer instead of so far hmm...haha wonder how she's doin now? oh well..so long never tok to her either..until recently...well woke up early todae...was studying sociology and psychology...i love tis module cos understand but wat i hate is that have to memorise d facts..i dun get it, if i understand d topic, y can i get anything in my head..m i too lazy to even bother to study...i dun think so...i take test seriously..because it would tell my how my performance are...oh well...

lol usually when i study, i will eat snacks, just now ate famous amos cookies, drank green tea and lots of water that i kept goin to the toilets haha..sth wrong with my bladder.. :P hehe..well since my classmates r studying, i think i better get going too...or else i'll fall behind track hehe...well gd luck to myself!!! i miss u darlin! :D muackz..

Saturday, July 02, 2005

~ 11:10 AM ~

Hee..yesterdae went to my sec sch concert..it was really fantastic!!!! my darlin, chel and i went to watch..we actually were sitted at d vip side..lol..haha honourary guest :P jus kiddin anyway..i had a great time with chel making up lol..but i guess after awhile our make up were gone lol..hehe..d time came, chel meet me 1st before we headed to meet my darlin..den meet yuan, pat n pearline

talking abt KC's production, i didnt noe thats d 2nd time he watch lol hmm..well tis year its a combination of d pri n sec..d pri sch students were so cute..their dances were kewl too i just love it..i love their drama too..d rabbit is so cutez hee :P my sec sch drama really did well too..they earn d gold award in d syf..thats so kewl!! d choir, dance club, malay culture n chinese culture n orchestra were all very good too..overall i think it was fantastic..haha not forgetting my ava club..lol miss being involve helping out..d past few years i was wonderin wat it was like to sit as an audience..now tis year i miss goin backstage..

met my former teachers..haha it feels so great to see them!!!!! was waiting for tis dae to get in touch wif them too cos dunno when got time to go back to visit them again..cos not so sure whether teachers dae eve, can come back anot..oh well..after d concert ended, my darlin n i went for a walk..d night vie is d best lol!!!! espcially when i get to see it wif my darlin :D also we ate ice cream..hehe nxt time we should share lol *wink* wahaha...okie i guess i better go now..wanna study haha tuloos!! once again congrats to d sch performers for their wonderful performance...